So I did it. Sort of. I asked the girl if I could take her out sometime. As expected she was very sweet about it, but it seems that she isn't looking for anyone right now and doesn't date. Not sure that I buy that she doesn't date but I suppose I have no reason to not believe her. I kind of got the "friends" thing, but maybe she was just being polite. I am not opposed to being friends. I have in the past said things like, " I don't need anymore fuckin' friends", but I am cool with that. I don't have a whole lot of friends around where I live to start, and for some reason I feel that this girl is pretty awesome and perhaps I could learn things from her, a new perspective maybe.
I think I've mentioned that I am pretty good alone. I like alone time and don't get freaked out about not having a romantic partner in life. Sometimes though, the urge strikes. With this particular girl, it was sudden and strong, both of which are hard to ignore. Maybe I made a bigger deal out of this situation in my head but the strong feelings I have, like this don't come around often and I definitely am not one to ignore them. Nonetheless, I tried and failed. Like the Urge Overkill song says, " I guess I'm gonna go it alone.."
I heard somewhere that as long as you aren't all fucked up looking that "funny trumps all". This theory would explain Jaime Kennedy and Jennifer Love Hewitt, for instance. It is boastful to say, but I think I have moments when I'm pretty damn funny. I can amuse is what I am saying. I was hoping the "funny trumps all" theory would be something to put me over, to at least get a chance. Didn't work out that way.
I'm not gonna ramble on, I am admittedly pretty sad about it, but unfortunately its nothing new. So back to the drawing board perhaps? I don't know. It takes a lot of energy to be into someone, even more to get shot down. I still think she is a real hip, foxy chick, some fella will be super lucky whenever she decides thats what she wants. Damn, I do wish it was me.
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